I was not raped: The story of a survivor’s journey
The day after I was raped, I felt like a ghost, a blank canvas, as if everything I had done was in vain.
I had lost everything.
But as I woke up the next morning, I knew I had made a mistake.
In a world where we are all expected to have a story, mine was different.
For months after the assault, I kept telling myself that everything was okay.
But it didn’t make sense.
What happened to me that day wasn’t right.
It was all lies, all fabricated stories that the media told me, to keep me in line.
It wasn’t me, and it wasn’t my fault.
In reality, the truth is that I was sexually assaulted, and I didn’t even know it.
When the truth came out, I was devastated, but at the same time I was filled with hope.
The night after the rape, I awoke to a strange feeling, like my whole body felt as if it was shaking.
It made me feel like my life was falling apart.
When I tried to leave the house that day, I became terrified.
I tried not to go out, but I couldn’t.
I couldn and I still can’t get out of bed, even though I am an athlete.
When a woman who has been raped asks me what I am thinking, I say, I don’t know, it’s too much for me.
I have had to learn to live with my fear.
I try to stay away from the streets, and when I go to the hospital I have to stay with my parents.
I am still trying to find a way to live my life normally.
But now I realize that my life has been destroyed by what happened to my body.
When my attacker was arrested, the media portrayed him as a monster, as a serial rapist.
But what really happened to him was that he didn’t really want to be accused.
In fact, it took months for the police to realize that he had been innocent.
When his case was eventually brought to court, he was acquitted on all counts.
He was never charged with rape.
Instead, he received a life sentence.
But when he was released from prison, he began living with the same fear that had brought me to my knees.
After a few months of living in the same house as my rapist, I realized that I am also one of the millions of Canadians who are survivors of sexual assault.
I realized the extent of the problem.
But I was too scared to ask for help.
I thought that if I didn�t seek help, I would never be able to get help.
But after reading a blog post by a young woman, I decided to do something.
I decided that the way I live my day is by following the rules.
I don�t dress up, I wear my hair down, I take my clothes off, and if I am out alone with a man, I wait until the other guy is gone before I go up to him.
I can tell my attacker, and his friends, and family that I don��t need them, and they will leave me alone, because I know they are afraid of me.
In the same way, I am not going to dress up to tell a story about how I was abused.
Instead of hiding the scars of what happened, I want to share my story with the world.
This is not just about me, this is about every woman who was sexually abused, every woman out there who has felt violated and hurt by their attacker, every survivor of rape who wants to be heard.
What I have decided is that, regardless of the outcome of my case, I will be willing to tell my story to the world, even if I have been accused.
I will share it because I want other women to know that it doesn�t have to be that way.
I want them to know what it feels like to be raped and not to believe that you can get away with it.
The other night, I went to the mall to meet some friends.
The atmosphere was relaxed, and the music was upbeat.
I knew that my date was going to be someone who was not my age, who was probably a model, or a comedian, or something that I would be interested in.
As I walked through the mall, I didn?t feel nervous.
I was a little nervous about how things were going to turn out.
But then I heard something.
I heard my date, her name was Stephanie, and she was standing at the entrance of the mall.
She looked at me and said, ‘You know, I really like your shirt.
Can you take it off?’
I had a feeling that she was about to give me a kiss.
I just froze, because my mind had been so preoccupied by what had just happened to her that I didn���t realize that she had just said, “I really like it.”
She didn?tt say much more.